A LITTLE CHAPTER OF US
For my Licku ♡
A story about two people who got a little lost…
and still found their way back to each other.
00 — BEFORE THE DIFFICULT DAYS
Two nights.
One beautiful memory.
Before all the little clashes of this week, we had something beautiful.
You came and stayed with me for two nights, and honestly… those moments were absolutely amazing.
Being together, having you around, sharing all those little moments — those are memories I know I won't forget.
“A difficult week can never erase a beautiful memory.”
01 — THE MISUNDERSTANDING
Sometimes,
my anger speaks before I do.
It started with something I misunderstood — the whole NITian / IITian conversation.
Somewhere in my head, I turned it into a thought that you only admired people from those colleges, and that someone like me, from a Tier-3 college, wasn't seen in the same way.
It touched an insecurity I already carried about my own college journey. Instead of explaining that feeling calmly, my anger got the better of me.
I'm sorry, Licku. I know I sometimes struggle to contain my anger when something hits a sensitive place.
I'm trying to become better at that. For me. And for us.
02 — THE INSECURITY
There is one feeling
I still can't easily explain.
I trust you.
I know you love me. I know you aren't looking for someone else. I know the person you are.
But somehow, when I imagine you with someone else, something inside me becomes uneasy.
I don't want that insecurity to control you, and I don't want you to think it means I don't trust you. It isn't about a lack of trust.
Sometimes I just want my little insecurities to be seen, understood, and met with a little patience while I will work on many insecurities but few I can't.
I'm sorry for the parts of me I'm still learning to handle but can't handle few insecurities.
03 — YOUR FEARS
But then I remembered…
you have fears too.
I know commitment and the future can scare you. I know your attachment issues can make your own feelings overwhelming sometimes.
And I know something else.
You trusted me enough to show me a vulnerable side of yourself that you once never imagined showing to a guy.
You allowed yourself to come this far with me. You gave me your trust even though part of you was afraid of what that attachment could mean.
That trust was a huge step for you.
And I never want to take it for granted.
04 — THAT MOMENT
Then you said something
that really hurt me.
With all those fears running through your head, your panic side got triggered.
And one sentence touched a place inside me that I never wanted to revisit.
For a moment, I almost forgot what I had originally been upset about.
I was just hurt.
05 — THE CALL
And then…
you called.
You calmly tried to talk to me.
I listened with my ears open, even though I was still hurt.
And then you started crying.
Suddenly, my own pain became smaller.
I was anxious about why you were crying. I wanted to know what had hurt you enough to bring you there.
I just wanted to comfort you.
06 — UNDERSTANDING
We stopped fighting
against each other.
I listened to your story.
And slowly, I understood why you said what you said.
It wasn't coming from a lack of love. It wasn't because you wanted to hurt me.
It came from fear, panic, attachment, and everything that was going on inside your head.
And understanding the feeling behind your words calmed me down.
That was the moment everything changed.
07 — WHAT I WANT YOU TO KNOW
Licku,
I love you.
My insecurities don't mean I don't trust you.
My anger doesn't mean I don't value you.
And these difficult days don't erase all the beautiful days we've had.
Sometimes I don't need you to fix my insecurity.
I just need you to see it.Understand it.
Reassure me.
And in return, I want to keep learning to understand your fears too — without judging them, without dismissing them, and without letting either of us face them alone.
I know how much you love me. I know how much you value my efforts. I will never take that for granted.
08 — THE MEMORIES
Because look at
what we already have.
The laughs.
The talks.
The quiet moments.
Just having you beside me.
A few difficult days can never erase a lifetime of little beautiful moments.
09 — STILL US
We came back
to each other.
♡
We fought.
We misunderstood.
We got scared.
We hurt each other.
We cried.
We talked.
We listened.
We understood.
And we came back to each other.
I don't promise that we'll never have difficult days.
I promise that I'll keep choosing you through them.